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At first, I thought it was nothing, just my heart hammering in the way it does when it tries to reconcile
I ignored it, for the first few hours, the dull thump (ache) that made my chest rise and fall in cacophonous rhythm against the world. It wasn’t until much later that I finally relented in what it really was. My voice cracked, on the simplest of lines; “I’m in here.”, the three little words nearly flooding my eyes with pain that I could not allow to spill forth. A quick nod, a small cough to clear my throat and it happened. The counter, the echo, the tiny little murmur that did not belong. No, it was not the beat of my heart that woke me this morning in reconcile. It was the background pain, gentle (ravenous) waves of this ache that I cannot name. In my foolish wonder, I focused upon it, and let it consume me, from my very core to the very darkest recesses of my being. It is with chapped lips, and trembling hands that I’ve been screaming “I’m sorry, I’m sorry!” at a cold screen, reflecting something that only I might see. It is with a heart that thrums against itself that I try to reach out, to find what I need, and never know if I will find. My wings blaze upon my back, the product of the destruction of myself, and I know they are mighty, blinding with their own special brand of pitch black light. Is this what I (wanted) needed? Why (me) now? Have I done (everything) something wrong? The tears have finally fallen, but there is a smile upon my cracked lips, wavering, fragile, yet warm. I pray my light might be seen, that my words might echo far enough, long enough that the world might hear, through this lifeless mirror that reflects my hollow gaze. I can only scream so loud, for someone to pick me up from the shadow that has washed over me, that I might pull them along with me.
I ignored it, for the first few hours, the dull thump (ache) that made my chest rise and fall in cacophonous rhythm against the world. It wasn’t until much later that I finally relented in what it really was. My voice cracked, on the simplest of lines; “I’m in here.”, the three little words nearly flooding my eyes with pain that I could not allow to spill forth. A quick nod, a small cough to clear my throat and it happened. The counter, the echo, the tiny little murmur that did not belong. No, it was not the beat of my heart that woke me this morning in reconcile. It was the background pain, gentle (ravenous) waves of this ache that I cannot name. In my foolish wonder, I focused upon it, and let it consume me, from my very core to the very darkest recesses of my being. It is with chapped lips, and trembling hands that I’ve been screaming “I’m sorry, I’m sorry!” at a cold screen, reflecting something that only I might see. It is with a heart that thrums against itself that I try to reach out, to find what I need, and never know if I will find. My wings blaze upon my back, the product of the destruction of myself, and I know they are mighty, blinding with their own special brand of pitch black light. Is this what I (wanted) needed? Why (me) now? Have I done (everything) something wrong? The tears have finally fallen, but there is a smile upon my cracked lips, wavering, fragile, yet warm. I pray my light might be seen, that my words might echo far enough, long enough that the world might hear, through this lifeless mirror that reflects my hollow gaze. I can only scream so loud, for someone to pick me up from the shadow that has washed over me, that I might pull them along with me.
Literature
Darkness
The pitter-patter of raindrops on cobblestones
when walking alone, engrossed in your memories,
your thoughts condescend behind you like a
narcissistic parent.
Vision changes, perspectives are skewed
downwards. A skeptical outlook becomes
a recording in your mind; when does it stop?
How do I get to this moment? Where did
I fucked up?
A flash of gunpowder, the mind lights up like
for the one instant where you felt hope. You
had an answer, but the voices keep coming;
smothering, snuffing; the fire is gone
and I'm suffering in silence.
Literature
The darkness within
There is a dark place in each of us, that many can't escape, where permanent slumber is what we are told to crave, we are stuck in a dark embrace, we think we can never break, it gives us what it thinks we need, pushing those we love further away, it builds a block between us and the world, so that we will stay forever caught in this poisonous place, the plan finally in action, for we are where it wants us to be, the light that once burned so bright in our hearts, it's stolen that away, it makes us weak, playing on our self doubt and harsh words, once said by those we care so much about, now it knows we will not fight back, we have already surrendered, the pain it gives us is to great to bear, making us think the unthinkable in our brains, we are told there is no other way, we must give in, we must end it all, but there is a way to break this dark embrace, if you let your family chase it away, they will come with lights to brighten up your day, the army needed to fight this
Literature
Darkness
Still darkness creeps
Sudden movements leap
Shadows gracefully weep
Sadness within me sleeps
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What might echo, but the blackest piece of what I am?
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