One flat night, the wind stilled itself like a breath held in the worst kind of anticipation; the moment when you realize, too late, that everything has gone wrong with every carefully laid plan. Every alibi come to naught in the face of something far too dark to even be given shape: gloried in the feverish tongues of those men who spread their crazed scripture to those who pass beneath their perches just out of reach.
Fear.
The word dances across the lips of the multitudes, washing away serenity and sense, slathering a coat of ashen sludge across our hearts and burrowing into the mind like some virulent maggot, squirming for that last litt
At first, I thought it was nothing, just my heart hammering in the way it does when it tries to reconcile
I ignored it, for the first few hours, the dull thump (ache) that made my chest rise and fall in cacophonous rhythm against the world. It wasn’t until much later that I finally relented in what it really was. My voice cracked, on the simplest of lines; “I’m in here.”, the three little words nearly flooding my eyes with pain that I could not allow to spill forth. A quick nod, a small cough to clear my throat and it happened. The counter, the echo, the tiny little murmur that did not belong. No, it was not the beat o
This world once seemed so bright, yet now everything glows through a filter of hazy greyness, an ash laden lens perverting what might have been beautiful.
My heart screams out against all this suppression, yet even that slowly fades; each beat coming slower than the last, heavy, sorrowful as the pitiful world that surrounds me.
Even the soft song of the birds seems to have become the dirge of a beleaguered soul, tired of the deathless life that has infiltrated every last crack of this shadowed little town.
The lovers down the road can taste it better than most, the slow death of stagnation creeping into one another's eyes at the zenith of eve
In the chill silence of this spring night, I stand frozen, blearily staring at the end of a road I am not sure I should follow. I have come to realize, in the middle of this nowhere town's street that I have no home. The word holds no more warmth, no meaning since my self inflicted betrayal. There is no place left, at least not as it used to be. So I breath a sigh into the night, desperate, cold, and utterly alone in the weighty ink. For but a moment I consider simply turning, and walking back into the ebon gloom, seeing where fate might expel me. But...no.
Marching on, back towards the light of a house that had been where I lay my head each
I am not a man. I am a collection of lies, a plethora of secrets without value or need. This empire of half truths I build for myself is boundless in its power, in scope. It is by my own design that i have become this, this new Belial in the kingdom of man. It is a fate that I crafted in secret, in sinful glory I condemned myself to this fate.
I once stood surrounded by a family, ignorant of the persona that I had woven about myself; indeed I myself did not realize the extent of the Kingdom that I had become Sovereign over. It was the moment if my Coronation, that I fell from grace, that my soul became void and the family around me saw me fo
I used to believe there was always something to believe in, a chance to make things right
We have mistaken the Light for a saving hand, now we're all gonna die
All the people that passed us by have given over to the Chaos that Reigns over us all
I gave you all the courage I could find, but I wasn't meant to belong (Don't believe in me)
There used to be a little bit to hold on to (Even in the end we could cry for a miracle)
Gone back to the scene of yesterday can you really not cry from all the pain?
Hearts hardened from all the lies we've been sold, we'll have to wake up someday
With lips never meant to shout we cry down the truth once
Was there ever any doubt what simple desire would make me do?
I never dreamed things would go so far, so far away from me
My simple wish spread into so much more than a guilty need
How did I fall so deep with my own secret little desire?
Never did I dream how much it would make me lose
How far away it would send me away from you
Never did a day pass on by that I never heard your cries
Wish I wasn't so blind, just enough to see all that I had to lose
*What a wicked dream wouldn't make me do, I never dreamed what I stood to lose
The little whisper told me what not to do, what a wicked thing I gave in to anyway
Fields of fire I breathe
Hush now, my little Irish girl
Everything'll be alright
Those tears of yours don't cry no more
Such pretty little eyes they mar, those darkened drops
Don't you worry now, I'm still here
The little blessings are always the best
Simple little ways to say I love you every day
Just give my hand a squeeze to let me know you're still there
*Sing for me now my little green-eyed girl, let your voice ring loud and clear
Fill the world with your light so dear, let it ring free and far
I'll lift you on high just to see you smile, stretch my wings towards the heavens far
Come on round for me my sweetheart, don't make me beg, let me hear the lo